~Love Life~

brands and gadgets.

2012-01-31T04:11:00.000-08:00

Heard of the brands Guess, Charles & Keith, Prada, Coach and whatever else? Of course you did right? I mean, who hasnt? Almost all the big shopping malls around KL and the Klang valley has them. So, what is it with these brands that makes them so well known by everyone? Because its famous? Don't know? Neither do I. I only know these brands because everyone keeps buying them and feels like its a need for them to have one of these overprized items.

Call me cheapskate but I feel that people spend more than they can afford just to get one of those items by those big brands just so they can fit in? So that people will look up to them because you're carrying a Prada? Yeah I know, the quality is good and all that but down the road wont the bag falter? You will end up buying another bag anyway right? So why spend so much when its something you're gonna throw away someday?

I used to be that person who cared so much about brands and I was dying to get one of them just to fit in. I mean, not that I cant afford it. I can, but I dont want to. Handbags for instance, how much does a normal sized handbag by the brands mentioned above cost? More than RM150 at least. With that amount of money, I can safely say if I go into a decent no-brand handbag store, I can get at least 3 handbags with RM150. Is it worth it? You tell me. People spend money like water these days. Like I said, they spend more than they can afford. For what?

Ever imagined what the less fortunate people even eat on normal days? Never? Sometimes they dont even eat at all. With that amount of money people spend of bags, clothes, watches and whatever not, if they have the sense to donate them to these people, dont you think life would be better for them, they can live like us too? Not everyone is fortunate like us and i've come to realize that. So why dont we help them by doing little things like a bit of giving? It might not be much, but it helps.

Now lets move to gadgets. Almost everyone is having a smartphone today. Even I have one. Smartphones are made easy so everyone can gain access to the intenet and connect better with everyone. Fine. I agree with that. But what if you spend half of your day with your face buried in your phone, whether its a BlackBerry, iPhone, iPad, whatever it is. What happened to communication?

Heard of Twitter? Have one? I have an account on Twitter and honestly, I am a twitterholic. Sort of. Till I knew some friends who are worst than me. They tweet almost every minute! Can you imagine? It means that you spend 50% of your day on your gadgets updating every single thing you're doing or thinking via Twitter. Seriously? If you have something to say or talk about, why cant you just talk? Is it that hard? Thats the thing with gadgets, you loose your communication skills. You forget what its like to talk.

Personally, I thank God that I dont have internet access when i'm in Shah Alam because I would have my face buried on the laptop screen all the time. Nowdays, I only go online when i'm back in Kajang. Even that is already bad because I hardly spend time with my family. I finally came to my senses and said 'hey you know what, screw this shit. There's more to life than sitting and updating you Twitter or Facebook status 24/7'. And trust me, once you talk to someone about anything, its the best feeling in the world.

I was at campus today and came across my twitterholic friend. We had this TESL carnival thing in campus today so everyone was busy inviting people to their booths to play language games and whatever not. You know what she was doing? Yeap, you guessed it right, she was sitting with her iPad and busy tweeting away. These gadgets make people become anti-social. You forget yourself and you foget the word 'communication' Can you imagine, people sitting 2m away from each other and they're texting? Why cant you just open your mouths and talk?

I could go on and on about this but at the end of the day, it depends on the individual to decide right? Its just my opinion anyway. I always say different people have different opinions. So yeahhh. Thanks for reading anyway if you did read the whole thing. Really appreciate it. Till my next post!

lessons learnt

2012-01-20T11:02:00.000-08:00

2 weeks. One of the worst two weeks of my life. I dont think I went to bed one night without crying. Why you may ask? Lets just say i've been going through a lot of thinking, emotional breakdown and I just couldnt get a grip of myself. A predicament part of my life, I should say.

Now, people say that your first love will always stay with you forever right? Damn, they're right. I've been fighting with my feelings this past 2 weeks. Heard some stories which made me feel even worst and made me think so much that my head almost burst. It all happened so suddenly that I was caught of guard you know. At first I used the method that many people would use, the coward method, which is avoiding the problem and act as of everything was okay.

But how long can you avoid something? And the longer you prolong it, the longer it'll eat you up inside. So, I picked up the courage and asked him out for a drink so we could talk. Talking always works. In any situation you are in, talking always works. Thats what I did, I said whatever I had to say and cleared things up. And for the first time that night in 2 weeks, I did not cry to sleep. We're back to being close friends again. And I promised myself, it will never happen again, whatever that happened. I should keep that private. So yeah.

What are the lessons learnt from this is that, people always say that everyone has a choice. But what if the choice is the choice that you dont want to make? Because sometimes, the hardest decision and choice is the best and for the best. And sometimes, some things in life requires sacrifice. Giving up something will let you gain something better in the future. Thats what I've learned :) and also, whatever problems you're facing, always try to talk it out to someone instead of keeping it inside. Trust me, its the best feeling in the world.

Ever since I had that talk, i'm going to bed with a smile every night knowing that everything is okay and I thank God for that. Yes, your first love will always remain with you. I dont think i'm ever gonna forget that. But not all first loves have a happy ending. Some things are for the better. You'll know what I mean when you get there.

take one step at a time :)

hope will rise...

2012-01-15T08:38:00.000-08:00

this song has been on replay for the fifth time now I think. the words just touched and hit me. here, listen.

as You open my life to the work of Your hands.

the weird me.

2012-01-15T07:33:00.000-08:00

i'm on fire with this blogging thing man. I suddenly have so many things to share about. well, this post is about the weird me because I think i'm weird? lol.

- I like listening to weird songs by Foster The People, Mumford & Sons, Melee and many more.
- I'm into space and astronomy and stuff.
- I've always wanted to work with NASA because I love astronomy so much.
- I also love the Greek mythology.
- I like reading about the history behind all those ancient artifacts around the world and my dream is to go to these places someday.
- I like Rupert Grint, David Silva and Dirk Kuyt because I think they look appealing.
- I bite my skin and chew on them always.
- I like collecting snow globes and if you give me that as a present, i'll be the happiest person on earth.
- Literature is my thing.
- I literally will squeal if I see anything I like in red.
- I daydream.

so, do you think i'm weird? :/

contradiction

2012-01-13T20:28:00.000-08:00

The word paradox is often used interchangeably with contradiction. A paradox is a logical statement or group of statements that leads to contradiction or a situation which defines a logic or reason. Something like an irony. Seems like i'm living my life in contradiction and irony.

must be the paradoxes of my life.

broken and bruised.

2012-01-13T08:34:00.000-08:00

i've officially started my degree! so happy really :) been so bored staying at home for the past 2 months doing nothing. basically this week was just introductory to the two subjects that i'm taking for this short semester which is English Language Proficiency 1 and Trends In English Language. the latter subject is pretty tough I feel. i'm sure with lots of studying, i'll be able to do it =)

the best part of this intake is, there's only 10 of us in a class. compared to my diploma, there were at least 50 in a class which made the learning atmosphere more congested and noisy. this is better, in my opinion. we can focus better and asking the lecturer questions you dont understand would be much easier. so far, i'm loving the classes and the people in these classes. there's only 10 of us that we can even go for lunch together :D

my housemates and in fact, half of MSU students were having their mid semester exams this week so everyone was busy studying and all that. and what was I doing? watching movies everyday because I had no assignments, no notes to study, nothing at all to do. at least two movies a day okay. that is how lifeless I am. of course, I did help my juniors a bit, who is also my housemates with their subjects that i've already taken before in my diploma.

there was one night I decided to watch Dear John. I thought I could control my emotions but yeah, knowing me, I just lost it. no, I didnt burst out crying in front of my housemates. I just held back my tears and felt that really really tight knot in my throat the whole time. and I felt really homesick at that time that I wanted to run home and tuck myself under my blanket and weep. but no, I controlled myself. then I had to listen to this one song la, again started emoing. already the movie murdered me, the song just crucified me.

I went to bed and put my earphones on trying to fall asleep. as the songs were playing one by one, it stopped to Blessings by Laura Story. tears immediately started steaming down my face and I sat on my bed and just cried. cried till I finally had no energy left, then I went back to bed. all I know is, the next day I felt so much better. I didn't have to ask God anything that night, He knew what was troubling me and He made me feel better. God always knows.

i'm back home in Kajang now and I feel alive as anything =)

besides that, did I mention ignorance is a bliss? oh I didn't. well here's the thing, I didnt hear from you nor did you hear from me for the past one week past I can safely say. of course, the first few days it felt like it was killing me inside. like I said, i'm so used to you being there texting me every single day. and when you're not around, I feel empty. but after that few days hearing nothing from you, I finally got a grip of myself. not completely but slowly. so I want to thank you, for ignoring me. because by that, i'll get over you. slowly. its hard, but I hope finally someday I will.

dont say there's no one for you out there. i've been here all along. you pushed me away. there's nothing I can do about that. I hope one day you realize that. i've always been here.

enough with the sentimental stuff. just felt like pouring out those things here. so yeaaahh.. went for a wedding just now and an uncle said something that made me think. he said "I always like coming for wedding dinners. because its where Jesus did his first miracle, at a wedding. the miracle here is the bride and the groom" :') so nice right? tres tres bien! :)

hope you have a good weekend everyone! =)

broken and bruised longing for you

and i dont know what i'm waiting for

cousins.

2012-01-06T08:54:00.000-08:00

love them or hate them, they're family =) and I cant live without my Ohana :)

cousins on Mummy's side =)

not complete though.

3 more in Sabah :p

cousins on Daddy's side =)

this one is complete :)

Amor a mi familia! :)

2012

2012-01-03T03:27:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 EVERYBODY!!

lol i'm 2 days late in doing a blog post on it. again, better late than never right? so, what were you guys doing on New Year's Eve waiting for the countdown to start? I was, well, on the dance floor dancing away with my friends at my kindergarten headmistress, Aunty Hazel's wedding. It was such a weird day to be honest but ended up with events I never expected would happen. Anyway, it was a good countdown, with family and friends :)

high school friends reunited :)

all in all, it was a good day New Year's Eve and New Years Day itself spent with family and friends. One of the best New Year's i've ever had. Oh, and welcome 21 years old me! damn, i'm old =.= lol. Just wanted to wish everyone that. I actually wanted to do my annual things to be remembered in 2011 but aiyah, so malas. next post maybe. till then folks! =)

christmas isnt christmas till it happens in your heart =)

2011-12-28T08:55:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS ONE AND ALL! =)

yeah, i know i'm 4 days late in blogging on Christmas. I didnt have the time laaaa :p I was away in Kuantan. A trip with the family. We do this every year. I'd like to voice out my suggestion but its best I keep quiet. Anyway, less talk in this post and more pics :)

Went for midnight mass this year after not going for 2 years. Daddy seems to think going for midnight mass is redundant which is why we dont go anymore. So, this year I managed to brain wash him to letting me go, wahahaha :p went with my cousins and this year to my surprise, everyone dressed up! I mean, I never wore the clothes that I wore for midnight mass before. Its always been dresses every year. Thanks to Matthew, my cousin, I wore something different this year. And my other 2 cousins? One did a Nigerian hairstyle, called conroe or something, the other one wore vest and got a fake earring. LoL.

me with Joshua and Jonathan.

and Jeremy there with the iPad.

went to church, I sat with Juan, Christine, Saha, Reuben, Alfred and Vivian. Everyone just looked stunning!

my favorite-st picture of the night! =)

Didnt get any picture on Christmas day though :( dont worry, more pictures to come soon! I shall go get all the pictures from all the cameras :) Anyway, after Christmas morning mass, we went to Mum's place for lunch then left for Kuantan. Honestly, I dont like leaving on Christmas day, so yeah. But Kuantan was quiet and nice. The weather there was lovely, windy all day long =)

trying to upload pictures, but cant. oh well, wait for my next post or just see the pictures in Facebook =)

till then my blog readers! In case I dont have the time, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! Its been a wonderful year, hope the next year brings more surprises and happiness to all =)

i lied

renewed.

2011-12-18T03:35:00.000-08:00

Much has happened since I last blogged. on Wednesday night, I decided to go for caroling at my cousin's zone, which is Jalan Bukit for the heck of it and coz I had nothing to do. It was really fun with good company too. On the way back from caroling, my cousin called our aunty to confirm on our much awaited 'cousin's day outing' which we've been planning to go on after Joshua finishes his SPM. Thursday it was.

So, on Thursday morning after my brother's tuition, we went to the KTM station and took the train to Berjaya Times Square. Walked around for a bit then we had lunch at Papa John's. The set meal is actually much more cheaper than Pizza Hut's and taste way better actually. But they cant beat Dominos of course :p Malaysian pizza standard, cant complain right? :)

Aunty Rosalind was looking for clothes for herself and Jeremy while I was looking for a dress. I just needed one more dress for New Year as I already have my Christmas Eve midnight mass outfit and Christmas morning outfit. Went to Sg.Wang, Metrojaya and I found the most PERFECT dress ever for me, tried it on and everything but sadly, I looked at the price tag and yeah, I just had to put it back :( *forget about the price tag* yeah righttt! *stress*

the cousins :)

To de-stress myself from the beautiful dress price, I dragged everyone to Cotton On, probably one of the best Cotton On ever in KL because its two floors and the choices were so much more and the sale was crazy cheap! I got two tops for myself which Aunty Rosalind paid as my early birthday present. Wanted to get that red beanie as well but maybe on my next visit. After that, we headed home for penitential service in church.

If you read my tweets on Twitter, you would know that I wanted to go for confession so badly because of all the things happening around me. I just needed to talk to someone you know. Finally, I had my chance. I just talked to the priest like he was my friend about all the problems I faced, and after everything I just felt renewed, light and everything was okay. It really was a good day.

On Friday, I spent the day at Mum's house baking cookies! Uncle Robert, Catherine and I :) We made Melting Moments and Corflakes cookies. It was super yummy!

i know you want it :p

At night, I was supposed to go for the Jalan Bukit caroling again but mummy asked me to help her with our zone Christmas gathering, so I didnt go. On Saturday, the whole morning I was in church with other youths helping to decorate the hall for the Migrant Christmas party which was today. At night, we had our zone Christmas party, was a small group but at least everyone had fun :)

Today, was the Migrant Christmas Party in church. Basically spent the whole afternoon in church helping out with the registration, food, dance, prize giving, cleaning up. Again, with good company, everything is fun :) Later tonight, i'll be going for my BEC Christmas caroling. The day just never ends, seriously! But when its so fun, I cant complain much :)

On other notes, I still need a dress, a belt, accessories and shoes to complete my Christmas shopping for this year. I always must have exactly 12 clothes for the 12 days of Christmas :p *vain*. So far, here's what I have on my list.

a black dress from the Thai fair
a black skirt from Nichii
a blue polka dot blouse from Nichii
an orange top from Nichii
a red blouse from Passages
a black blouse from Cotton On
a grey top from Cotton On
a green top from an unknown brand
a blue dress from Arcadia
a white blouse from an unknown brand.
a green checkered shirt from Nicole MNJ.

too much right :p oh well, its once a year. I dont get to buy this much at clothes all at once everyday okay. So why not? :)

On another note number two, my feeling for you have become numb and it all became so clear when you just walk past me like that. It may take some time, but people always say time heals everything. Indeed it will :)

Till then everyone! See you soon! 4 days left till I turn 20! No more teenager :( *sobs*

i'll miss you.

no, fate and dreams dont collide sometimes.

2011-12-13T20:02:00.000-08:00

growing up.

2011-12-11T19:42:00.000-08:00

have you ever looked at your childhood pictures and just reminisce back on old memories? yeah, i know people say we shouldnt look back on our past and all but what can I do, when I just happen to look so cute last time and now :p LoL. but really, I was going through some of the albums and there's just so much memories! I even teared looking at them. some pictures are really funny but it was all good times.

now, you just have to face so many different problems everyday. its not like what it used to be those days. yeah, i know life is not a bed of roses but I would do anything just to relive that moment back. I actually did yesterday though, when my family had a small gathering at Mama's place since it was her 6th death anniversary. I remember going there everyday after coming back from school and eating all the good food Mama used to cook. I remember playing in the badminton court opposite Mama's house with my cousins, Joshua and Jonathan every evening. I remember going in the mini 'orchard' opposite Mama's house to pluck rambutans, durians, langsat, bananas, papayas, mangoes and all those fruits, I remember climbing the hill behind the house just to see the river.

I climbed that hill with my cousin and siblings yesterday to look for durians :p and saw the river too! it felt so good! i really miss all these.

I miss having the coconut tree hair.
I miss people calling me Miss Bones.
I miss Mama's chicken curry.
I miss people coming and pinching my cheeks.
I miss playing in the 'porch'.
I miss playing 'masak - masak' with my cousins.
I miss playing 'married - married' with my cousin.
I miss watching Little Lulu and Paddington Bear
I miss messing up the house and getting away with it.
I miss my childhood so so much :'(

sighhhhhhhh. oh well, on the bright side, I still open my birthday presents beside the Christmas tree every year =) hehe. I always do have that child feeling when I do that =)

memories will never fade.

at Christmas time.

2011-12-09T22:36:00.000-08:00

i've been listening to this Christmas song over and over again but never really paid attention to the lyrics. Its called 'Do They Know Its Christmas'. I dont know who the original singer is but the Glee cast did a cover of this song and it was superb! just look at the lyrics.

Its Christmas time,

there's no need to be afraid

At Christmas time,

we let in light and banish the shade

And in our world of plenty

we can spread smile of joy

throw your arms around the world

at Christmas time

But say a prayer

pray for the other ones

At Christmas time its hard

but when you're having fun.

there's a world outside your window

and its a world of dread and fear

Where the only water flowing is

the bitter sting of tears

Where the Christmas bells that are ringing

are the clanging chimes of doom

Well, tonight thank God its them instead of you.

And there wont be snow in Africa this Christmas time,

The greatest gift they'll ever get this year is life

where nothing ever grows,

no rain or rivers flow

Do they know its Christmas time at all?

Here's to you,

raise a glass for everyone

here's to them

underneath that burning sun

Do they know its Christmas time at all?

Feed the world

Let them know its Christmas time again,

Feed the world,

Let them know its Christmas time again.

the lyrics is really nice right? we're all so happy during Christmas time but what about those people suffering here and there around the world? what do we do for them to feel the joy of Christmas like we do? or give them some happiness in their life for that one moment at least? something to reflect on this Advent.

enjoy! :)

kutless

2011-12-05T07:54:00.000-08:00

you must be thinking, what on earth is Kutless right? well, they're a Christian praise and worship band. I happen to be looking for some Christmas songs to listen and I came across a Christmas album sung by all the famous praise and worship singers i've known except for this band Kutless. so I thought i'd youtube them and hear they're songs and my gosh, they were completely breathtaking!

its been a while since I listened to any praise and worship songs simply because I was too caught up in all the latest music and my favourite singers that I neglected that time for God. I used to be the person who prayed every night before going to sleep, used to be the person who would turn to praise and worship songs for strength and comfort instead of emo songs, used to be the person who listened to praise and worship songs all the time and constantly download all the songs I love. but somehow I got drifted away.

day and night all I listen to was songs by my favourite artist. tonight though, after hearing a song called What Faith Can Do by this band Kutless, I was in awe and almost cried. I realized how much I miss listening to worship songs and they were always there when I was down needed something the most. then, I started youtube-ing Christmas songs by worship bands and gosh, they're so much better than these pop Christmas and whatever not. seriously.

at least what happen tonight knocked some sense into my head. one way or another. I now have a new favourite band, Kutless :) besides them, you can listen to these bands too, they rock, literally. Planetshakers, Casting Crowns, Building 429 and Tenth Avenue North :)

do check the song out! :)

silent prayers get answered,

broken hearts become brand new

thats what faith can do.

20 to 20

2011-12-02T08:14:00.000-08:00

20 days to go till I turn 20! gosh, I cant believe i'm turning 20. I dont feel 20 at all. anyway, I got some stuff to talk about. all this random stuff that i've been doing recently la.

1. I got an A for my internship and a B for my Malaysian Studies. yeah, a B. you have no idea how happy I was. I thought I was gonna fail k. I failed for my mid sem so I really was scared for my finals. I never liked MS and played a lot during the mid sem and thats what I got. I did give my everything for my finals though. I studied and worked hard. cant be expecting to get an A but I did my best and thats what I deserve.

2. the difference between Pitbull and Taylor Swift. fist of all, I love Taylor Swift to bits k. you can say whatever you want about her, but she's my idol and I love her and her songs. Pitbull, well he's not bad but I dont quite like his songs coz I dont know, its vulgar? and talking about girls body and sex all the time in his songs? sounds like a philander. anyway, who am I to say those stuffs right. and yeah, people who dont like Taylor Swift and adores Pitbull need not criticize people based on their songs, character whatsoever. you like your idol, i like mine. lets just keep it that way and not criticize about them.

3. people having peer pressure. i've seen people, my friends even, trying to be 'in' with their friends. what I can say from this is that I think they're under peer pressure. you see your friends smoke, talk cock, drink and you wanna be like them just to be accepted? hello, get a life la or get a new set of friends unless you're too afraid to loose them. seriously, i've seen enough of this peer pressure crap. do you really need to spoil you life just to please the friends around you whom you dont even know will be there for you in times needed?

4. Kajang town is flooded today. big hoo hah on Facebook and Twitter. you can go see the pictures la. definitely cant miss it. its EVERYWHERE. I just pray for the people whose property got damaged.

well, thats all for now I guess. I shall update more when I have something else to talk about.

its been 365 days.

and there'll be more.

my december

2011-12-01T03:28:00.000-08:00

and the month i've been waiting for all year is finally here!! I'm so excited!
no I dont have any particular wish or goal, I shall just let the month go with the flow.
oh wait, i do! to rap Nicki Minaj's Super Bass. LOL!
other than that,
everything will be as it is meant to be.
have a good December everyone! :)

chopped.

2011-11-28T01:17:00.000-08:00

duck tails!

Cheers to the freakin' weekend!

2011-11-28T01:15:00.000-08:00

i miss these Sarawak drinks! :(

White Lady.

the best drink ever!

see that drink in the glass there.

its called teh c peng special.

that green layer is pandan flavoured.

heaven!

I have died everyday waiting for you.

2011-11-22T23:18:00.000-08:00

Love is Stupid.
Love is Tangled.
Love is Complicated.
Love is Extraordinary.

you see, the thing about love is that when it hits you you just fall, and you fall so hard that its impossible to get back up. and with every fall, it surely will hurt when you wanna get back up again. I kinda am in that position right now.

I never wanted any of this to happen but somehow, someway you just got me and now i'm trapped in there and it isnt easy coming out from that trap. the thing is, i'm so used talking to you every single day and when you're not there or when I dont hear from you a day, I get restless and I feel like something is missing. God knows what is happening to me. I may sound immature but man, this love thing really is hard.

I know what it feels like to have someone not reciprocate back your feelings. yes, i've been there before many times. but this time, its like I dont wanna give up. I keep telling myself everytime that I have to let it go, but then you go and do something and it just mesmerizes me in one way or another. now you see what I mean when I say love is stupid. Its always like that, the moment you wanna give up and walk away, something happens and you fall back in again.

but I know that that chance isnt there at all. its impossible. I keep building castles in the air that one day it will, but I doubt so. and I cant keep waiting forever. but the weird thing is, I can wait and I want to wait. sigh, i'm just in a mess and all muddled up right now.

and there's a voice in me that sings this song everytime I think of all this love nonsense.

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching
As if i'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please dont fight, these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you.

darling don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years

i'll love you for a thousand more.

heartbeat

2011-11-16T06:47:00.000-08:00

I promise to update soon k! in the meantime, enjoy this song. I know I am =)

I know the memories rushing into my mind,

Cause you love someone, you love them all the same.

all I want for Christmas is...

2011-10-30T07:58:00.000-07:00

hehe. I know Christmas is 2 months away but I just couldn't stop thinking of what I want this year. It'll be during my birthday time too so double the presents la :p I know, its too much to ask but if I get at least one of it, i'll be the happiest child on the planet! Yes, child :p whaaaaaatttt, people still thinks i'm 14 k :p I should use this advantage that I have.. lol..

so anyway, here is my Christmas list :)

- a Guess or Charles & Keith handbag
- a DSLR camera
- Cecelia Ahern's The Time Of My Life
- Nicholas Sparks's Safe Haven and The Best Of Me
- a Samsung Galaxy S2
- Taylor Swift's Wonderstruck perfume
- a new bookshelf
- a dreamcatcher
- cute flats
-you

teehee. too much right? :p I said I dont mind getting one of them. of course not all la. so yeah, mummy and daddy or my family members, I hope you read this post! :p

thing you do when you're bored.

2011-10-16T06:00:00.000-07:00

yes, i'm super bored right now, hence i'm doing this 100 random questions that i curi-ed from Juan's blog :p

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
- Mandy Moore - Only Hope
- Glee Cast - Sing
- Carrie Underwood - Jesus Take The Wheel
- The Moffats - I Miss You Like Crazy
- Glee Cast - Keep Holding On
- Five For Fighting - The Riddle

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
- Oprah Winfrey, Taylor Swift, Bruno Mars and the Harry Potter cast :D

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
- "I invariably stay at them myself" Nora Roberts, Table For Two

4) What do you think about most?
- my future.

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
- Matthew saying that he's at the non fiction books side. LOL.

6) Do you sleep with or without on?
- With or without what? LOL

7) What's your strangest talent?
- Probably my ability to laugh so much. hahaha..

8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
- Girls are fragile. Boys are sometimes kinda fragile too.

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
- Nope.

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
- Air guitar? Whats that? But no, I dont play the guitar..

11) Do you have any strange phobias?
- Yes! I bet everyone knows what it is. I hate it when people touch my wrist or even if I see people playing with their own wrist.

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
- NO.

13) What's your religion?
- A proud Catholic :)

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
- Dreaming and looking around at people.

15) Do you perfer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
- It depends. haha! Most of the time in front la :p

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
- Lady Antebellum!

17) What was the last lie you told?
- I was busy.

18) Do you believe in karma?
- Sometimes, yeah.

19) What does your screen name mean?
- My name is it? Christina means a Christian one and Abigail means father's rejoiced. lol..

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
- Weakness is guys who plays guitar with a voice to die for. Strength is i'm a very patient person.

21) Who is your celebrity crush?
- Rupert Grint :D

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
-Nope

23) How do you vent your anger?
- I'll keep quiet and ignore the person or i'll tweet. LoL.

24) Do you have a collection of anything?
- Yeap! Hard Rock Cafe T-shirts, Coins and keychains from different countries :)

25) Do you perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
- Talking too long on the phone isnt my thing. Video chatting is okay I guess. A little bit of both la :)

26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
- I think so. I'm not sure.

27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
- I love the sound of the piano, I hate the sound of drilling.

28) What's your biggest "what if"?
- What if I fail?

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
- Nope, dont believe in both.

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first?Do the same with your left arm.
- Sweets! :p

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
- Air

32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
- Public toilet! Disgusting!

33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
- Both! :p

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
- Bruno Mars? :p

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
- Life is full of things to explore. Everyday brings something new :)

36) Define: Art.
- Art is all pretty things :)

37) Do you believe in luck?
- Nope.

38) What's the weather like right now?
- Its cold and nice! It just rained.

39) What time is it?
- 8.34pm.

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
- Yeap, minor crash la. I hit a van while trying to park in church :p

41) What was the last book you read?
- If last book I read was The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. If currently reading, For One More Day by Mitch Albom.

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
- If it includes petrol, yeap :)

43) Do you have any nicknames?
- Yes. Giggles, Tina, Gail, Snooze, Pudding(dont ask).

44) What was the last movie you saw?
- Johnny English Reborn! :D

45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
- Hmm. I never had any major injury before.
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
- I think I did once when I was a child.
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
- Yes. Trying to get my hands on the new Cecelia Ahern book :(
48) What's your ?
- Huh?

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
- I dont know.
50) Do you believe in magic?
-I believe in miracle! :)

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
- I used to but then I just stopped it.
52) What is your astrological sign?
- Capricorn! :)
53) Do you save money or spend it?
- I try my very best to save. So far, so good :)
54) What's the last thing you purchased?
- My new book, Evening Is The Whole Day by Preeta Samarasan

55) Love or lust?
- Love.

56) In a relationship?
- Single.

57) Are you a virgin?
- You think?

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
- No.

59) Where were you yesterday?
- At home alone, then to church and to grandma's house.

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
- The tortoise small aquarium cover. LoL.

61) Are you wearing socks right now?
- Nope.

62) What's your favorite animal?
- Puppies! or dogs :)

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
- Nothing. Just being myself.

64) Where is your best friend?
- I dont have a best friend, if a close friend, she's in JB right now.

65) Spit or swallow?
- Spitting is disgusting. Swallow I guess? lol

66) What is your heritage?
- How am I suppose to answer this?

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
- Texting.

68) What do you think is Satan's last name?
- Dont know and dont care. LoL.

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
- I have no idea what this means. LoL.

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
- I guess so :)

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
- Help the dog of course. I'm a dog lover so what more?

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live.
a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?
- No I wont.
b) What do you do with your remaining days?
-Spent as much time with my family and friends :)
c) Would you be afraid?
- Yes I will be.

73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.
- Love.

74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
- Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall by Coldplay

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
- 2212! My birthday date :)

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
- Communication, trust, and being each other's best friend :)

77) How can I win your heart?
- Being yourself :)

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
- Yeap! :)

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
- To take teaching as my lifelong career :)

80) What size shoes do you where?
-Size 6 or 7 :)

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
- My name la. LoL!

82) What is your favorite word?
- ermmm. I have no idea. HAHA.

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: heart.
- Its fragile.

84) What is a saying you say a lot?
- LOL.

85) What's the last song you listened to?
- Owl City - Fireflies

86) Basic question: what's your favorite color/colors?
- Purple and Red :)

87) What is your current desktop picture?
- Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint :p

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
- HAHAHAHA! No one at the moment. LoL.

89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
- Whether I'm still in love with you.

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
- Cover myself with the blanket and try to go back and sleep.

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
- Invisibility :)

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
- The last day of camp.

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
- None. I dont regret any of my mistakes made.

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
- LoL! To sleep? No way.

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
- Rome! I'm dying to go there! :(

96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
- HAHAHA! No.

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
- Yes! HAHA! And my brother couldnt stand the smell and threw up too! LOL!

98) Ever been on a plane?
- Yeap! :)

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
- I honestly have no idea.

100) What do you want?
- Many many things.

i'd rather love just a little too much

2011-10-14T23:09:00.000-07:00

hey there bloggie! another long long MIA by me. i'm sorry but i've been just too busy! sometimes i feel like just deleting this blog coz i'm just so inactive. anyway, lets move on to what i've been up to.

last weekend, I watched this new movie called Something Borrowed and my emotional meltdown started from then on. it was also the weekend my cousin got married, so imagine watching a romantic comedy movie then going for a wedding. the feeling was just like the gut from my throat could come out through my mouth any minute in every second.

its just that i kept thinking some of the past things that happened to me and how i wished i could have changed it. but then again, i dont regret anything i've done because we learn from our past, our mistakes. oh dont mind me, my mind is just so messed up and tangled. one minute i'll be thinking of something good and the next minute i'll be looking on the negative side of things.

so yeah, basically i spent the whole of last week being emofied and kept trying to fake a smile. but towards the end of the weekend i was fine and when school started, i felt a lot better. this weekend, i'm super fine more than anything in the world :)

this was supposed to be a blogpost where i wanted to do a write up on weddings and all that but i forgot everything that i wanted to write about so i guess you just have to wait for another long long break till i finally do another blog post. lol. this blogpost turned out super lame i know.sorry for wasting your time! :(

sometimes I wish I could be normal around you and not have that feeling I always have when i'm around you.
sometimes I wish we had more things to talk.
sometimes I wish you would hug me tight or put your arms around me like you did once.
sometimes I wish we could talk for hours without noticing the time pass by.
sometimes I wish I could watch all those sad and funny movies with you.
sometimes I wish we could go out on random notes.
sometimes I wish I could talk lame stuff with you and just laugh about it.
sometimes all I want is for you to be beside me.
sometimes I wonder if you would ever feel the same.
sometimes it scares me so much that I think about you all the time.

I just want to fall in love with you over and over again, and maybe at one point we'll get tired of each other but until then I want you, and just you.

i'm still trying to learn the art of love.

2011-09-18T03:14:00.000-07:00

Cause i'm still trying to learn the art of love
I'm still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble
Let me know
You need to spell it out
You need to spell it out for me
Cause i'm still trying to learn the art of love.

the bucket list.

2011-08-29T00:51:00.000-07:00

of course from the title, you'll know what this blog post is going to be. Its the list of things I want to do before I die! :)

Do bungee jumping and snorkeling.
Ride on roller coasters in amusement parks besides Genting.
Give 5K to charity.
Go to Rome, Paris, Prague, Venice and Machu Picchu!
Write a book.
See Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint.
Sing in front of an audience.
Get a tattoo.
Get married to someone I love.
Have kids.
Visit all the 7 Wonders of the World.
Get over my phobia, somehow.
Hug Taylor Swift.
Watch turtle eggs hatch.
Get my brother and sister through Uni.
Become a bridesmaid for one of my friends weddings :)
Attend the World Youth Day at least once.
See the Pope and kiss his hand if possible.
Go to Jerusalem
Visit at least 5 UNESCO World Heritage Sites besides in Malaysia.
Hold and take picture with a snake.
Hug Bruno Mars.
Watch Yiruma play live.

I cant remember anymore. LOL. but if i do, i'll definitely update them here! :D so yeah, these are some of the things that I want to do before I die :)

crapiness.

2011-08-19T19:53:00.000-07:00

is that how you even spell it? I wanna write a long long post, but not now la k. soon. pretty much explains how i'm feeling.

long long break.

2011-08-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

hello! Its been a month plus since I last blogged eh? I was just too busy! My 2 months holidays has finally ended and I am doing my internship now as a trainee teacher at Sekolah Kebangsaan Seksyen 9, Shah Alam. Its been 3 weeks already and so far, everything is good :) I'm loving my life as a teacher. Who knew right? Despite the screaming, sore throats, lesson planning, activities, I am very much enjoying my part time job :)

I really really want to upload pics of my school and me and my colleagues at work but I dont have any of em pictures yet. Soon okay soon! Anyway, i'll get back to my internship in a while. I shall post some pics of what I have been doing during holidays la. Not many, but here's some of them. From June till end of July :)

beginning of June, went out with Colin, Amanda and Glynn

the three people i've been wanting to go out with for so long..

celebrated Juan's surprise birthday at Shaun's house..

had our youth committee sleepover just 2 weeks before our camp :)

our very successful camp in El Santuary, Malacca =)
I did a post about this, in the previous post.

my awesome chalet mates :)

the KAGAPE dance team! :)

chu chu train!
because we are all kids at heart :)

then there's the Liverpool training session.
who knew I'd be seeing Liverpool in front of my eyes :)

and this was the actual game day.
Liverpool vs Malaysia.
I curied this from Manda's camera :p
this also marks the end of my holidays..

first few classes of Malaysian Studies.

the 5 of us decided to climb Broga Hill one random day.. :)

then comes Youth Awakening 2 weeks ago :)
that was about it la for whats been happening..

Now, back to my internship. Its been 3 weeks and so far, i'm getting the hang of it. There might be some wrongs here and there in handling the classes and writing lesson plans but i'm sure in the weeks to come, everything will go smoothly. For the first week of my internship, our school had a student exchange program with students from Tokoname, Japan. 5 students and 2 teachers came for a 2 weeks stay here in Malaysia.

the welcoming ceremony for the Japanese students.

they were gonna perform a Japanese dance.

the next day, the school had extra curricular activities

one of it was 'gubahan buah-buahan'

this was one of the groups gubahan.

yeap, thats me :)

I dont have any other decent pics of me

coz they're still in my friend's camera.

they had kite flying.

I dont think you can see the kite.

LOL

sucky phone camera..

this week was exam week,

so all we had to do was take care of the class.

spot Cikgu Alias there? =p

my record book! :)

where all my lesson plans are..

and this is a certificate I got from the school

for facilitating the students for their Mathematics extra class :)

Well, thats about it. I'm currently thinking of how to teach a standard 5 class on the topic 'singular and plural' this Monday. Any suggestions? :) So yeah, that all for now! Hope the week goes by well. Till then everyone! Adios! :)

*because true loves waits*

Righteousness, peace, joy.

2011-07-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

hello everyone! hope everyone is doing great! well, recent happening is i've just got back from Holy Family Church Youth Camp 2011 at El Sanctuary in Malacca. I'll just share my experience about the camp and how it has touched me in one way or another. Earlier, during the testimonies time, I did wanna go up and give my testimony but I thought let the participants do it. Anyway, i'll get to that later.

For the past few months, the committee has been working real hard in finding the theme, speaker, place and everything in between for our annual camp. So, its been decided that the theme for this year's camp will be "To Believe and To Live" and our speaker would be Dr. Steven Selvaraju. Many of us were not familiar with Dr. Steven as none of us had gone to any of his talks hence we did not know what kind of presenter he was. What we did know was that, he was really good and knowledgeable in the Catholic faith which is why he was chosen as our speaker.

I remember a few weeks and days before the camp, the committee would have frequent meet ups to discuss on our updates for camp. We were contemplating much on the speaker because we thought and assumed it was going to be boring but Christine, our ever optimistic leader, assured us that he is good and fatherly. So, the day of the camp came, my parents were working and there was no one to send me to church. Finally, Juan picked me up and as we were all going up on the bus, I saw a lot of enthusiastic faces which was good.

When we reached there, we had ice breaking session, got to know our group members, got our rooms and so on. The highlight was the food, hands down. Have you ever gone for any camp and had lasagna for dinner? We did! :) The first session was basically getting to know about our faith and introduction by Dr. Steven. During that time, I could see many faces who were kind of regretting they came for camp because the speaker was a bit too deep in his sharing.

Nevertheless, the next session was praise and worship led by Juan. It was a good time to remove all the hustle and bustle of our lives and spend some time with God, which I doubt some of us do. I felt lighter that night after the session though I kept on freaking out coz I had a phobia of standing in front of crowds and what more, singing. The session went well though, and that concludes the first day.

The next day, we had the same morning prayer like our last camp then proceeded for breakfast. The session after breakfast was about the Catechism of the Catholic Church(CCC). Honestly, i've never opened the book my whole life. Yesterday was the first time. The session was a bit draggy and heavy for us, I could see that but I tried my best to grasp whatever I could in that short period of time, and I did find out some things I never knew about the Catholic faith.

Dr.Steven saw and knew that we were feeling restless because the topic was heavy and he did his best to make it more interactive. I really admire him for that, he never gives up. He even re-did his programme that day because of us. After lunch, we had another short praise and worship session which was led by me. I was so nervous and my hands were cold and shaking. I couldnt throw out my voice and I felt like I disappointed everyone. I couldnt concentrate on the next session either. But my group members helped me out of it. They're always so funny and keeping the group alive. My group name was 'Tha-Bomb' by the way :) Alfred, Anne, Vidiana, Flora, Harvinth, Justin, Anastasia, and Kimberly, you guys rock! :)

Somehow I cant help but think that I did bad because of my sins, many many sins in my heart and that was God's way of punishing me. Throughout the day, as we had our games and group discussions, I felt slightly better. I felt even better after watching all the skits performed by the groups. Never knew there were so many talented youths in Holy Family. All the groups did a good job I must say. No winner or loser.

The highlight of the second day, has to be the praise and worship session led by Amanda. She did a really really good job. During this praise and worship, I decided to surrender everything to God and just let Him be with me for that time. And I know He was because I could feel it. I was overwhelmed with tears in my eyes and I could feel all my fears and sins swept away. And after that, of course, we all slept late, talking ghost stories, playing cards, playing random games and just bonding with everyone. That concludes the second day.

Today, the sessions were basically to refresh our memory on our faith. I didnt really concentrate today, was really sleepy :s During praise and worship session after lunch, I had no fear in me at all. I sang, I danced, I jumped. And I did it all without having the fear of what people would think, how bad I sounded. It was all for God and boy, did everyone had a good time. Good job to the praise and worship team, Amanda, Freddie, Juan and Shaun. =)

Next, was the testimonies. I did feel like going up and sharing but then better let the participants share their thoughts on the camp. My heart really melted and I was so touched by their testimonies that I teared too. I mean, we were all complaining even before the camp started and after experiencing so much together, none of us wanted to leave. Then of course, they had to play "If We Hold On Together". I started la crying, coz the song was so emo and I was feeling it. Its just so hard to explain that feeling, i'm sure you know how it feels.

On the way back, I was just thinking about how much we've all learned and wondering if this will be just another church camp as always where you go for the camp, gain so much experience then it will only last a few weeks then its back to square one. I know for a fact, that when I came home today, its always been square one. No matter how much I pray and do whatever it is for you to change and hoping that I can forgive you, its just so hard. You cant and never will change. I just dont know why.

Its just that, I hope God will somehow or rather touch you and show you the way and bring happiness to all of us because we need someone better than what you are now. If there's one word you should know, its called LOVE. I dont see that in you at all and I do pray and hope that you will see that someday. And i'm also praying that I will someday, forgive you too for everything you've done.

Sorry about that, was connecting it to the camp experience. I really really love my committee very much and we all did a good job making this camp possible. Christine, Alfred, Alvin, Juan, Glynn, Helena, Tracy, Vivian, Anne, Freddie, Shaun, Amanda and Pamela, you guys are the best committee I could ever ask for and we've been journeying together a lot for the past 2 years. It breaks my heart to see us leave. I love you guys a lot! :)

On the other hand, i'm glad that i've achieved my one objective which is bringing you for the camp and seeing such joy in your face with friends around you. You're not alone and you dont have to be, you know that? I'm happy that you made a lot of new friends and gained new experiences. I do hope that it will continue growing in the time to come =)

To this, I end my super long blog post. I know its not that great but I just felt like writing something about the camp. I learned things I never knew, found peace for a moment, friendships, all this is one camp, is just amazing :) I do hope everyone have a good week! God bless! =)

Call upon the name of the Lord and be saved

mirror me

2011-06-13T11:22:00.000-07:00

when i stare into the mirror,

what is it i see?

i see my own reflection

staring back at me

but then i look deep within,

the mirror of my soul

i see my present, and my past

and what the future holds

i see myself as what i am

and what i could have been

i see the shadow side of me

thats hidden deep within

as i stare at my reflection

staring back through my own eyes

i see myself as others do

but i also see the lies

the mirror rids me of disguise

of hatred, truth and tears

i see myself through my own eyes

and see my deepest fears

maybe i should end it all

so many ways to die

i lean up againts my wall

and suddenly begin to cry

the tears stream down my face

as i begin to say goodbye

goodbye sunshine, goodbye mummy

cant say i didnt try..

then i looked into the mirror

and see me standing there

a troubled, lost and lonely child

with tearstrained cheeks and matted hair

well, mirror thanks for being there

but its time i stepped away

its time my mask came off for good

the real me is here to stay.

now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now..

2011-06-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale,
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now

born this way!

2011-05-25T22:39:00.000-07:00

hello! i just decided to blog coz i thought of something which happened to me a few years back. still kinda haunting me but i know i'm sort of over it already. well, everytime you do something to yourself or even doing something, i'm sure there is a reason to why you do so right? this morning, as i was combing my hair, sitting in front of the dressing table, i realized that i'm not that cute or pretty or beautiful as people say i am..

a few years back, those days when we all had puppy loves. i had mine too. i remember how i used to like that guy soooo much and go giggling with my friends about him when he passed by or smiled. oh, those memories. but thats not what haunts me. its what those boys said that hurts. there were a few boys who actually liked me but told my friends that if i was taller and thinner, then they would consider making a move. you see how judgmental and choosy these boys are?

after that incident, i remember dieting and wanting to loose weight so bad and i was so insecure about my height. i went to the clinic several times where the doctor told me i had gastric. it was that bad. i was so paranoid about my height and body figure. i just wanted to feel accepted. and it didnt help when all my friends had bodies like Tyra Banks and Beyonce and all those models you see on TV.

as i grew older, i realized there's much more of me than just my figure and height. i love me for who i am and those of you who wants to pass judgements on me, go look at yourself in the mirror first. and you know whats ironic, those guys who said those things years ago, now, is 'like'-ing and commenting sweet sugary words on my photos in facebook. eat your heart out eh?

and here i am today, i'm loving myself no matter what. you can call me short, fat, ugly, whatever you want. at the end of the day, i am who i am and you cant change me. i can only make the change in myself if i want to. i just wanna say that, all you people who have been teased at, laughed at, just close your eyes and swallow it all and walk with pride and dignity in yourself. be proud of who you are because we were born this way! =)

We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no

This is from Glee

their version of Born This Way

which i love so so much! :)

i miss you more than anything..

2011-05-22T20:38:00.000-07:00

hello!

the reason i'm here is to post a song

because, I MISS YOU!! :D

i seriously am addicted to this song right now..

It's drivin me mad, I miss you so bad...

We will still be, friends forever :')

2011-05-20T23:23:00.000-07:00

and so, with yesterday i attended my last class for my diploma. no words can describe how i feel right now. looking back at the pictures and everything we've been through together just makes me feel choked up inside. after 2 and a half years together, we finally attended our last class yesterday. where did the time go? it just ended so so fast. as much as i always complain about not liking the place, it was my stepping stone to the bigger world out there. the things i've learned and the friends i've made. not forgetting the awesome lecturers who were always there for us, never showing that they were mad, always with a smile on their face. i'm really gonna miss all of these.

Diploma In TESL May 09, i'm going to miss you guys and i love all of you loads! All the best for our upcoming practical. lets go out there and make everyone proud! :) this is for you.. =)

1st sem, doing our theater play.. =)

Tesl Orientation Day.. :)

here comes 2nd sem.. =)

still freshies..

surprise bday parties.. :)

1 Malaysia event.. :)

those annex days. haha..

<3 Shan..

the day when we moved into our new campus

everyone was excited as ever.. :D

pictures after pictures..

i still remember that day..

just 3 weeks after short sem started.. :')

my girlfwween.. :D

bunnies!! :D

back then when I City wasn't famous

and you didnt have to pay money to go in..

Tesl Night 2010..

Tesl Carnival.. :)

with our beloved mentor, Mdm Izlin.. :)

i'm gonna miss her so so much.. :'(

this was on my birthday.. :)

the first time i saw that hot guy from the public speaking competition

sitting, with the people i love.. <3

Super Juniors!!! =p

:')

with Miss Roges.. :D

Tesl Night 2011..

look how pretty we all are.. :)

bersukan!! haha..

our well done effort for our microteaching at RACTAR. :)

:')

with Mdm Shabina, the strict one..

she's the one who inspired me to take psychology..

i heart you guys!

class of May 09' :)

we're all gonna jump like this when we graduate OK! :D

you guys rock!

its been a blessing meeting everyone of you

all the memories we shared, will be locked in my heart forever.

:')

2011-05-17T01:24:00.000-07:00

this song made me cry.. :')

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

*Every time I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don't be scared, it's only love
That we're falling in
I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on
Don't look down, it's only love
Baby, that we're falling in*

hiatus!

2011-05-15T00:10:00.000-07:00

hello again! =p hehe.. told ya i'll do another blog post.. this post is to update on whatever has been happening in uni.. a week ago, we had our March and May 09' farewell dinner because we were all gonna be sitting for our final exams of the final semester and will be heading for internship 3 weeks after that. and after intern, none of us knows whether we will be seeing each other again after that or not as some of us might change course or move to another college. so we had a farewell dinner for the Diploma students of March and May 09 intake.

the theme for the dinner was 'back to school' which means we had to wear our school uniforms. i tried on my sister's primary school pinafore and it fit perfectly! so, i decided to wear that.. :) however, that night some misunderstandings happened and caused us to look for another place for the dinner instead of the original plan, which was at campus. we went to a lakeside instead. although it was warm, dark and no place to sit, the committee put it together and it was a job well done.. :) here are some of the pics of that night..

fatin~parames~me~naufal

Clarice and I..

the head prefect, the student and the other student! :D

haha.. we had to exchange gifts.. this was after we had em'.. :)

all in all, it was a good night indeed.. :) i'm gonna miss you guys. because, there is a high possibility i'll be changing course. and changing college too. i wont be seeing all of them after that anytime soon.. well, thats life. we gotta leave some things behind to pursue our goals and what we wanna do. we still can see each other. its a small world, remember? :')

now, this was on tuesday. some malaysian artist came to the college and they had some big hoo-hah about it.. i didnt even know who was that.. lol.. we had to stay back and watch some marching or smtg like that.. my friends and i decided to take pics instead! hahaha.. shows how much we care.. pfttt...

posers kan? =p

we just looooveeee looking at MSU so much! =p

cuteness overload! :D

i ♥ them.. :)

so yeah, that was basically what happened all this time that i havent been blogging.. :) as i've mentioned earlier, my finals is in 2 weeks time.. study! study! study! hehe.. see you soon bloggie! :)

oh, and btw, i miss this bunch of people!

we should go out soon! :)

have a great week everyone! :)

*your love put me at the top of the world*

the lil one..

2011-05-14T22:39:00.000-07:00

hello hello!! i miss blogging! i've been wanting to blog but got a lot of stuff to do la.. i think i'm gonna divide the blog posts to several posts coz if i post in this one, its gonna be really long. hence, this blog post is dedicated to my sister.. lol.. thats because, the other day, Diane did her microteaching in class, it was a lesson on poems. we had to write a 6 line poem on the topic that she gave. my group had the title 'sister'

in the poem, you had to include these words: inspiration, a burning candle and memorable moment. i kinda knew my group mates would ask me to write the poem coz i love to write random poems, and they did. somehow, i was kinda down that day, so i just sat quietly as they discussed. while sitting down, i decided to try writing the poem. i managed to, did it in like 5 minutes.. haha.. this is how the poem goes..

There was a burning candle in the room that night,
I saw a figure, it looked like my sister.
A soft weeping I heard, so solemn and gloomy.
She was my inspiration, my light.
Oh how i miss those memorable moments we shared.
My sister, you will always be.

yeah, that was it.. haha.. i know its kinda lame and like over a bit but it got chosen to be presented in front.. =) haha.. just wanna say that i love my sister a lot although she's a pain most of the time but she can really make me laugh and i hope she grows fast! i want a sister i can talk to about stuff.. she's still young. she wont understand those topics i talk to, to my friends whatsoever. oh well, time.. is all it take.. :)

they're called FRIENDS

2011-05-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

i'm sure everyone have friends right? i mean, who doesnt? how can one live in this world without one.. we've been going to school since kindergarten and throughout all the years till we left school and now currently in college, some might be working, i'm sure we all have had many friends along the way.. now, there are different types of friends we meet too! the good ones, the bad ones..

let's see, these are some of the friends i've had throughout my life.. mainly in college though, cant really remember those old ones but i'll name some.. :)

friends who are always there with you to listen to your problems..

friends who can be annoying at times..

friends that are like brothers and sisters you never had..

friends who pisses you off so much, you just feel like killing them..

friends who gives the bestest advice till it makes you cry..

friends who LOVE to show off..

friends who give their shoulder to cry on when times are rough..

friends you envy a lot and wished you lived their lives..

friends who makes you laugh all the time..

friends who can be friends in front of you but back stabs you from behind..

friends that are with you through your hardest times and moments..

friends who thinks they know everything but actually knows nothing..

friends who talk perverted stuff all the time and it actually makes you smile..

friends whom purposely makes you jealous, or maybe its just me..

friends whom you giggle and laugh with when you see a cute guy.. :p

friends whom like to show off. i HATE this kinda friends, thats why i mentioned them twice..

friends who knows everything about you which just makes you smile for no reason..

friends who are judgmental..

friends you hang out with just for a drink or a meal..

friends whom likes to act like a dumb blond or in malay they call it 'gedik'

friends who picks you up everyday because they cant see you walking to campus even if its so near..

and lastly, friends who will ALWAYS be there for you.. :)

I love my friends, regardless of whether they are ugly, beautiful, fat, thin, annoying, fun to be with, we are all God's creation. its the way were were brought up.. :) and those of you who reads this and hate it or 'terasa', well thats too bad for you.. its know as freedom of speech.. :) again, i love my friends. i might have forgotten to mention some, but nevertheless, i heart you guys! :)

because love is beautiful ♥

2011-05-04T05:36:00.000-07:00

i'm in a lovey dovey mood..

hence, this... :p

syok sendiri right?

i know..

but, sighhh~

i cant help it..

the pictures are too nice.. :)

*We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun, you're mine
All mine
Play the music low
And sway to the rhythm of love*

its May baby!!

2011-04-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

which meanssss, internship is just one month away! daymmnnnn!! i feel so unprepared.. like really unprepared.. anyway, yesterday was daddy's 50th birthday dinner. it went well, food was great. not many pics taken but its the memories shared that counts.. :) here are some of the pics taken.. :)

daddy's friends, uncle Michael and wife, and uncle Billy and wife..

family members, just arrived..

Cat, saying grace before meals.. =p

Fr.William blessing the cake..

Happy birthday to Daddy! :D

the famous cake feeding.. =p

cousins, from mummy's side.. this is just half of them..

Nick~Abby~Ashley~Matt

with Jeremy and Shayna.. :)

cousins from the dad's side, Jonathan and Joshua..

hehe.. thats about it.. of course there are more pics from other camera's but i'll upload them later when i'm free.. till then everyone, enjoy your weekend! =)

you make me wanna say "I do"

2011-04-29T07:33:00.000-07:00

ah yes, everyone is all hyped up about the Royal Wedding today.. its been trending on twitter for the whole week, it was the wedding the whole world was waiting to watch.. I was one of them too! gosh, i cant tell you how excited I was..

i had my mid sem this week, yesterday and today to be exact.. it wasnt too bad as i thought it would be.. i did well, i must say.. :) anyway, as soon as my paper finished today, i was eager to go home to Kajang because i wanted to watch the wedding so badly.. but first, i needed to satisfy my hunger by treating myself with the awesome rice at Padang Jawa.. =p i love food, what can i do? =p

so yeah, after that i headed to the ktm for kajang. train was packed as hell today. thank god for the woman coach, seriously. as soon as i reach kajang, i asked my cousin to fetch me and then headed to my grandma's place. my grandma, uncle and aunties were all watching already la, and i, excited as i always am joined in as well. waiting and waiting patiently for the Prince and his family and the bride to arrive at the church..

all i was saying throughout was "awwwwwwwww" and "so niceeeee!!!". typical, i know. haha.. but yeah, every part of the wedding made me go "awwwwwww".. and i nearly teared and was smiling from ear to ear like a sicko.. haha.. what? i cant help it, it was just so so romantic and watching a real fairy tale come to life.. simply just WOW.. :) the highlight of the wedding was of course the famous kiss at the balcony of Buckingham Palace.. :) another incident that made me go "awwwwww" dont believe me? see the pictures! you'll go "awwwww" yourself! =p

her gorgeous dress by Alexander McQueen.. :)

the newlyweds, Prince William and Princess Catherine,

Duke and Duchess of Cambridge.. :)

the highlights. :)

i bet Princess Diana would be smiling from above.. :)

okay, i better stop with the wedding. i'm getting crazy already.. haha.. :D i have royal business to do this weekend.. super busy! need to do the slideshow for daddy's 50th birthday party, attend that talk in church tomorrow, send cousin off to the airport coz he'll be going to US for 5 months :(, attend the PYC formation in church on monday, finish up assignments due next week, and the biggest of them all, planning and practicing for my presentation because i'm the 1st person to present. sighhh~ :( oh well, got lots going on this weekend.. busy! busy! busy!

see you soon bloggie dearest! au revoir!

*will you marry me? =p*

I'll be by your side wherever you fall ♥

2011-04-21T22:56:00.000-07:00

hi everyone! remember the last time I posted a blogpost about all my favourite lyrics in the love songs? well now, since I got nothing better to do and coz i'm in a state where I need the Lord with me more than ever, i'm gonna post all the lyrics of the praise and worship songs which has touched me in some way or another.. :)

the thing is, sometimes I do dumb things without realizing and I hurt a lot of people. and right now, i'm trying my very best to apologize to someone but i'm finding it really hard because saying sorry is not easy and whether the person will accept your apology is another thing. hopefully it will all go well.. even if it doesnt, at least I tried and thats the best I could do. it was my mistake in doing it in the first place, so I deserve the blame and pain.. =s

So when you get the chance
Are you gonna take it?
There's a really big world at your fingertips
And you know you have the chance to change it
There's a girl on the streets, she's cryin'
There's a man whose faith is dyin'
Love is calling you

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head

Cause You're all I want
You are all I search for
It is You I've always longed for
God I come
To be here with You
To be here for You and You alone

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

So what are you waiting for? What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities, they try to hold to you
But you know you're made for more, so don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all it takes, and you can walk on the water, too

*this is something for you too*

I just have to stay and face my mistakes... :(

2011-04-19T21:58:00.000-07:00

as i'm writing this, i broke someone's heart close to me..
one year ago i broke someone's heart who was so fragile and was close to me too..
i keep breaking people's heart like a wicked witch with no feelings at all..
i wish i could turn back the clock and undo all of it..
but sadly, this is reality and i have to face it, i cant undo it no matter how hard i try..
i just have to make the best out of it or do something to change whatever that happened..

What have I done
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
'Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
Oh how many times will it take for me
To get it right
To get it right

Can I start again
With my faith shaken
'Cuz I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay
And face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah I sent out wish
Yeah I sent up a prayer
Then finally someone will see how much I care

friendship is a beautiful gift ♥

2011-04-16T03:51:00.000-07:00

my favorite bunch of people :)

'Captain' Christina Abigail signing off! =p

a testimony

2011-04-16T03:36:00.000-07:00

hi there bloggie! i havent been posting anything here this time around eh.. sorry. =( been really busy and got nothing much to blog about actually.. anyway, this blog post is my testimony about what i've learnt during our Microteaching assignment at the orphanage home last Saturday.. :)

I’ve never thought of becoming a teacher at all, simply because I never really liked teaching at first. To me, it was a rather a boring job with no challenge whatsoever. Little did I know that a few years down the road after having that thought, I would end up here doing my diploma as a future English teacher.

I was contemplating about our Microteaching at the orphanage because I’m the type of person who doesn’t really like to speak in front of crowds simply because I am shy. I’d rather be the one who doesn’t have the limelight and be the ‘behind the stage’ helper type. But somehow, this couldn’t be avoided as it was compulsory for all of us to do our microteaching as it was part of our coursework.

I’ve had teaching experiences before this but somehow this seemed a little challenging because we were going to teach children with quite low proficiency in English. That really freaked me out when I saw the condition of their level of communication. I thought, “This is going to be the end. I won’t be able to do it”.

But then, during their breakfast break, I gathered my courage to talk to some of the children, as I like talking and playing with them. I found out that it wasn’t that bad after all, well maybe because I was talking to them in Bahasa

Malaysia

that’s why it didn’t seem bad. They were friendly and respondent though, a bit cheeky and playful, but we were all children once right?

When lunch time came, I felt even more nervous than ever because our group was the last to teach. I really was dreading for the time to come. I took the initiative to go and talk to more kids and get to know their names so that I wont feel so lost while teaching later, at least I would know some of their names.

Finally, the time came. Standing in front of everyone felt like I was standing at the edge of a cliff with my heart beating faster and faster every second. As my friends were presenting, they did a lot of jokes, and I saw my lecturer smiling and laughing along which made me feel a bit lighter. Then comes the first activity, conducted by three of my friends which was Snake and Ladder.

During that time, one of the kids, named Fatimah who was the rascal one there, I bet. She asked me to bring her to the toilet, twice! That really made me scared even more when I got back, because I was loosing out on what my friends were presenting. Then, eventually it came to my turn to teach.

I tried to remain calm, and threw out my voice as much as I could so that everyone could hear me. My partner in teaching, Naufal did his part of the introduction and I was to explain the instructions of our activity which was called ‘Love Letters’. I tried explaining in the simplest English and I think the children did understand which was a really big relieved to me.

My teammates helped Naufal and I conduct the activity which I think went smoothly. The only disadvantage I think was the time constrain. We had to rap up the activity as fast as possible because we were only allocated a certain amount of time to allow our next teammates to present. However, I really do think our activity went well and I did not screw up that badly as I thought I would.

Teaching at this orphanage really opened my eyes to the different types of difficulties of students, level of proficiency and whatsoever that we will be facing later on during our internship. This was just the beginning. I now know that teaching is not an easy job after all and it really is more challenging that I thought.

At the end of the day, none of us wanted to leave the orphanage because we were all touched by these children and we were really glad that we got to teach them something and hopefully they would learn and remember it. I now know that I should never take anything for granted because it looks easy or simple, until I try it. :)

future teachers on board! =p

Lord, save them..

2011-03-11T20:54:00.000-08:00

hey, i bet you've heard about the recent Japan tsunami.. it was really bad, almost equivalent to the Indonesian tsunami a few years back... lets all pray for the souls, the survivors and the ones who are bound to be found by the rescue team.. please do keep them all in your prayers.. God bless them all..

I close my eyes, and i can see a better day,
I close my eyes and pray.
I close my eyes and i can see a better day,
I close my eyes and pray.

please Lord, save them...

hello March!

2011-03-06T04:15:00.000-08:00

oh wow, can you believe it, its March already! where did the time go huh? *shakes head* time is flying by sooooo fast mannn.. so, what have you people been doing lately? my finals is this week! yikesss!! this is considered like my final sem before i do my short sem and head for my practical in school.. goshh~ i wonder if i'm even up for it...

the thing is, i like teaching and everything but i dont think i wanna pursue it as my lifelong career.. i wanna do other things as well.. like, teach while doing something else too.. wouldnt it be more cool? lol.. i shall decide all that after i finish my degree k.. for now, let me just sail through my diploma coz its gonna end soon..*sobs* everything is happening too fast..

i got nothing much to blog about actually.. i'm just blogging right now coz its a new month and i wanna write something or else it'll look dead.. LOL.. i know, you'd probably be thinking "whats the point of having a blog then?" well, i just dont have all the time in the world and i told ya already i dont have internet connection at that shah alam house.. which reminds me, i might be moving again soon... pfftttt... daddy really wants me to move somewhere nearby the coll.. i really dont understand why.. its so expensive! sighhhh~ oh well, i dont have a say in this as usual..

oh i almost forgot, Lent period is starting this wednesday.. i'm gonna be a vegan again for 40 days.. its time to go slow on the food as i've been a total pig recently.. eat and eat and eat non stop.. no wonder my pocket money finishes so fast.. the youths will be having a few outreaching programs for Lent, i so cant wait! :) happy fasting everyone!

so anyway, here's my timetable for the final exam..

Thursday(10th March) - Teaching Aural Oral Skills
Friday(11th March) - Educational Psychology
Monday(14th March) - Classroom Management
Wednesday(16th March) - Professionalism and Ethics
Friday(18th March) - Pedagogy

tadaaa! i'm gonna do my best and leave the rest to God.. :) all the best to everyone too k.. :)

i miss this bunch of people.. suddenly~

my friend, Maizatul Adlin is in hospital now dealing with a very serious disease

please do keep her in your prayers k..

thanks everyone..

and remember, whatever happens..

in your problems and trials..

remember that God is always there watching over you

and dont forget to........

have a great week everyone!!! =)

after a hurricane, comes a rainbow =)

2011-02-28T05:00:00.000-08:00

i got inspired by Katy Perry coz of her new song, Firework... :)

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
drifting through the wind
wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
like a house of cards,
one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ough-ough

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

the meaning in this song is very deep.. its like one of those praise and worship songs which makes you lift yourself up or something.. :) its nice right.. :)

*Cause baby you're a firework*

what happened in January. Pictures only! :p

2011-02-03T21:34:00.000-08:00

yes, pictures only as i promised.. =p all in college only though..

first day of Catechism class..

the students this year very quiet laaa.. :(

the day in class when Giha brought her camera

and we all started camwhoring.. :p

aten~giha~me~fatin~fadhlin

Alias damn semangat taking our pics.. lol..

the famous jumping shot..

then at night, we went to see Naufal's sis at the

Mr and Miss MSU competition..

our classmates, Adib won it.. haha.. =)

this was during exam time.

we all so semangat studying all night..

till can sleep off..

Naufal is gonna kill me for this.. =p

the excited faces when exam was over.. haha..

and we all treated ourselves at Fullhouse in Sunway..

then comes Syahmi's treasure hunt mentor mentee activity..

made us run around the whole campus

according to his mind on paper!

so cute!! but blur la..

this make up for the sleeping pic above rite? :p

Arifah brought her camera too.. and this happened.. haha..

during Diane's surprise bday party..

Noshini and I.. :)

ok ok, lets forget about all of them for a while..

and..

look at..

vain pictures of ME!!!! =p

take 1..

take 2..

take 3...

take 4..

take 5..

take 6..

take 7..

and finally.. take 8.. :p

hehe.. i just had to put my pics in there too la.. =p

what to do..

i like to bangga diri..

its good you know, to bangga diri..

but not too much la of coz..

anyway, thats all for now..

see ya in the next blog post! chiow! =)

*my heart stops when you look at me*

oh look, its February!

2011-02-03T20:04:00.000-08:00

why hello there bloggie! its been a month since i last wrote in here.. goshh~ i know.. i'm a terrible blogger la.. very the sorry! well well, i have loads to talk about but lets not look back on the past and see whats happening now okay.. =p i shall give you a glimpse of the past via pictures only.. or else this post will take forever to finish.. haha..

first of all, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all my chinese friends and those who are celebrating it.. because the college I'm going to and the place i'm staying at near my college are do not have a lot of Chinese, hence my classes were till Wednesday which was CNY eve.. right after classes, mum came to fetch me and was on the way back to my beloved Kajang.. =)

went to grandma's place for reunion dinner, yes, i have reunion dinner too k.. haha.. and i ate and ate and ate especially the YEE SANG! I love it!! thats the best thing about CNY besides the ang pau of coz.. haha.. =p so yeah, dinner was awesome with all the family members and friends around.. <3

my cousin, Ashley and I.. :)

ahhh.. yes.. the yummy Yee Sang <3

family and friends..

and more family members..

all the yummy food!

so that was reunion dinner.. yesterday for CNY, we went to dad's classmates house.. and ate and ate again.. and i have officially put on another 5kg's!! arghhhh!! what happen to my target of being 50kg's by the end of Feb?! daymnnnn.. and it doesnt help when TESL Nite is next week! NoOOoooOOOoo!

this is my dress btw..

i know it looks messy and ugly..

but the theme is colourful..

and whats more colourful than a peacock dress?

hehe.. :)

well, thats about it i guess.. oh the past pics.. i shall upload it in another post la.. dowan to keep it soooo long.. alright? :) till then.. oh, i shall leave you with a song which i think is really nice.. its from Glee called One Of Us.. =) bye everyone! have a lovely weekend!

If God had a name, what would it be
And would you call it to his face
If you were faced with him in all his glory
What would you ask if you had just one question

And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home

If God had a face what would it look like
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like heaven and in Jesus and the saints and all the prophets

And yeah yeah god is great yeah yeah god is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
He¡¦s trying to make his way home
Back up to heaven all alone
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in Rome

And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

What if god was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
Just trying to make his way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to heaven all alone
Just trying to make his way home
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in Rome

the last 2 verses are kinda offensive i think.. it is to me la.. the rest of the song was good, just the last 2 verses.. hmmm.. what do you think?

*just hearing your voice over the phone makes me smile everytime*

a week in slumberland!

2011-01-08T00:03:00.000-08:00

hey hey! the first week of 2011 is coming to an end eh?? so what did you do this week?? back to school and everything.. haha.. my week was basically filled with lots of things to do as next week is my mid sem exam, more assignments are being given.. preparation for the TESL Nite with the tesl club committee and loads more.. basically, it'll be a busy month till Feb la..

anyway, i dont know what else to write so i shall just leave you with pictures.. *isnt that what i always do? =p* hehehe... toodles everyone!! have a great weekend!

i was alone in my room so this is what i did..

camwhore with the webcam!! =p

mentor mentee activity by Nas..

badminton game..

which made my hand damn pain till now!

hmphh!!!

Aten and I.. :)

the lovebirds and I menyibuk! =p

POSER alert!!! =p

haha

he asked me to blur the I Love MSU tshirt..

tsk tsk tsk..

GAYS!!!!

caught on camera!!

and FINALLY......

introducing...

TESL Nite 2011..!!! =D

Theme: Masquerade Star Nite

Fee: RM60 per person

Venue: Kelab Golf Sultan Abdul Aziz Shah(beside PTPL)

weehoo!!

limited seats only!

so make sure you get your tickets A.S.A.P!

see you there! =D

Enjoy the song!! i know i am.. :)

*the first week was an awesome one!*

a brand new year..

2011-01-01T06:27:00.000-08:00

first of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 EVERYONE!!!

so, what did you do today? as its also a special date.. 1.1.11.. awesomeness.. well, i went to grandma's place and just ate and ate and ate all day.. haha.. this is the only season where you can eat so much till your heart's desire so why worry about all those pounds? technically, its still the Yuletide season hence, DONT STOP EATING!! lol..

there are some things on my new year's resolution list..

*loose 5kg's by February hopefully..
*see Taylor Swift live in Singapore hopefully..
*no more emoing and causing troubles for no reason..
*get into the dean's list before i finish my diploma..
*successfully graduate from my diploma and move on to degree..
*make a change in someone's life..
*doing something big which i dont know what..
*doing something crazy like bungee jumping, sky diving, roller coaster ride or smtg..

thats about it i guess.. :) hopefully everything can be achieved although the last one seems impossible.. haha.. =p hey, you'll never know right? anyway, hope you guys have a great year ahead and a blessed one.. take care and till then.. =) toodles!

*never underestimate the power of second chances*

looking back at the year...

2010-12-30T21:12:00.000-08:00

so here we are, the last day of the year.. what a wonderful year its been.. so many memories made and i'll always remember it definitely.. although i cant remember every single detail but i'll try to update what i can remember aite.. here we go down memory lane.. :)

*had our first Youth Awakening which I think was a blast!

*spent Valentines Day alone.. =(

*sang on stage in front of more than 100 people and it freaked me out..

*lost and got back love.. <3

*family members which stayed far far away came to Malaysia and we had family reunions

*went to Sabah and i had dreams of moving there.. i dont know why.. =p

*moved to the new MSU campus which looks awesome!

*SPAIN won the World Cup!!!

*cut my hair!! :)

*got heartbroken..

*became a GLEEK.. =p

*moved house due to lame problems..(house in shah alam i mean)

*attended Faith Friendship and Freedom camp which changed me into a better person.. =)

*met up with old school friends which i havent seen since SPM was over..

*finally found out i was obsessed with Taylor Swift.. yes i am! =p

*celebrated my 19th birthday.. :) gosh i'm old..

*celebrated Christmas with my beloved family, both mum and dad's side.. i loved it!

*lost love again.. must be the perfect way to end the year.. sighhhh~

anyway, 2010 was a really good one.. i learnt a lot of things which I think changed me to be a better person.. I know I am a stronger person inside and not physically.. hope that 2011 will be a better year and i will learn more things as my life goes on.. i know it will be.. :) here are some pics of what went through 2010..

there.. most of the pics of what happened in 2010.. =) hope you liked it.. i know i did.. 2011, here i come!! =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 everyone!! =D

P.S this is for you..

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

*i've had the time of my life when i was with you*

back to December~

2010-12-30T19:14:00.000-08:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

*freedom aint nothing but missing you*

guess who's back?

2010-12-17T08:29:00.000-08:00

hey hey! guess who's back? ME!! =p haha.. i know, i havent been a good blogger this month.. i am just so busy with stuff.. my weekdays are packed with classes plus i have no internet connection to even blog and my weekends are just packed with loads of stuff to do.. so, what did i do this week you may ask? i shall just show you pics of everything la k but to sum it all up, i had one awesome week.. from meeting old friends, to surprise birthday party to going to the hospital.. lol..

its not me la who's in the hospital.. its daddy.. he got admitted today for a dental surgery.. :) he'll be fine.. just pray for him k? thank you!! :) well, as promised, here are the pics... enjoy! *i'm too lazy to blog thats why*

random day in class.. :)

with arifah.. :)

went for the Love & Life Malam Ria with Sapna..

and came back with 3 others, Chris,Chris and Jacinta.. :p

with Jacinta.. :)

Mdm Izlin's surprise bday party..

all the December-ians cutting the cake.. =p

right..

i had to jump and say

"Happy Birthday Mdm Izlin! I love you!"

3 times!!

DO NOT LAUGH!!

classmates~

hmm.. thats about it i guess.. as i said earlier, daddy is in hospital now.. gonna see him tomorrow and its gonna be one big packed day la.. hospital, shopping, church, relatives dinner, back to the hosp.. dont even make me get started on sunday.. my weekends are always packed.. esp in december.. i just love this month la.. =) anyway, my birthday is this week.. =) yes, i'm finally gonna be 19.. and next year i'll be 20 already.. goodness me.. so olddddddddd.. :( haishhh.. how time flies..

i shall come back soon k! i'll try my best.. till then bloggie.. i dunno what to talk about here d... so, bye for now.. :)

*no Jimmy Choo's please! =p*

missing in action.. =p

2010-12-10T20:20:00.000-08:00

the heck i was.. my poor darling bloggie.. i know you missed me right? so sorry la.. i've been wanting to blog but as usual, i love to procrastinate which leads me to writting this blog post now.. anyway, i really have no idea what to blog about actually.. i just came here to blog coz i dont want it to look dead.. haha.. ok let me just recap on what i have been doing since the beginning of December till now and the things that are gonna happen..

watched Due Date with a few of my friends at Mid Valley the other day.. funny crap la that movie.. should watch it if you're in for a stress release.. =)

had our first Jai Ho dance practice for the ponggal festival next year.. its awesome! but damn pain.. this is what you get for not exercising often.. my leg still aches till today and the next practice is on sunday.. haiyoo...
went to Mum's house after that and their house was already decorated.. all in the Christmas mood.. me too!! mine is in the process.. all decorated already, only the tree not up yet.. =p

the tree in Mum's house..

while decorating the house, i found Jordy's Santa's hat too.. so i decided to put it on and take a pic of it.. =)

hahaha.. so cute!!

we had our first mentor mentee activity that day by Shangkari.. it was really fun to sum it up..

Amirul and Syahmi doing APRICO!!

damn funny la the game.. :)

maybe we can play it for our youth games later.. :)

hmm.. i guess so far thats all the main highlights that happened so far la.. whats coming up you may ask? well, here's what i have in store for my december..

* 12th - Jai Ho 2nd practice

* 14th - LnL Malam Ria at Good Shepard Church, Setapak

* 17th - Charlene's church Christmas Concert

* 18th - Relatives anniversary dinner

* 19th - Christmas deco in church with the youths, Migrants BBQ night..

* 20th - Penetential Service

* 21st - Ashley's 1st birthday

* 22nd - My birthday :)

* 23rd - Mentor Mentee activity

* 24th - Christmas Eve Midnight Mass

*25th - Christmas in Taiping and Penang till 27th

* 31st - New Years Eve..!! =)

tada!! see how pack my december is.. haha.. i got loads of stuff to do plus with college sumore.. haiyoo.. i hope they give us Christmas holidays which i can only hope coz i know it wont happen.. pfttt.. anyway, looking on the bright side, Christmas is coming and its the season of giving.. :) so i shall see what i can do to give.. :) and if i dont blog again till next year, SORRY! you've seen my schedule for yourself rite.. =p till then bloggie! toodles! :)

*all i want for Christmas is you*

my december :)

2010-12-01T22:15:00.000-08:00

hello December..!! woohoo!!! the month i've been waiting for all year has finally arrived..!! why am i waiting for this month you may ask? well, Christmas songs will be filling the atmosphere, my birthday is in this month and of course,Christmas.. :) its the best time of the year! so today being the first of December, i was all hyped up to go to coll and all set to study... cheeehhh wahh.. hahaha..

classes went on as normal.. first class was Aural Oral skills.. i had a new nickname too.. BRIDGE.. hahaha.. this was because, i sat between the boys and girls, so according to my lecturer, Mdm Amalina, i'm the bridge that connects the guys and the girls.. HAHA!! funny i know.. =p then it was break time so went to have lunch at the U cafe.. mummy called after that to tell me she and daddy are at the airport and will be leaving shortly.. sighh~ another 4 days without them.. :( they went to Bali btw..

right after classes were over at 4, Amir and Aten sent me to the train station and i finally took the ktm again after like eermm 11 months? haha.. its been soooo long since i last took the train and i was praying hard they wont betray me on the first day of December.. and it didnt! i was sooo happy the train came on time even the one going back to Kajang.. :) at kl sentral, i had the most amazing sight ever.. 2 gorgeous guys walked in the train and i couldnt take my eyes of them.. like seriously.. wooowwww... hahaha..

and another guy stood beside me with the earphone in his earholes blasting the music away.. he had a good choice in music i must say.. i was actually singing to the song that was until he turned and saw me.. goodness.. embarassing la.. then when the train reached mid valley, a few church boys which i knew off entered the train, made so much of noise and got shut down by some man.. hahahhaa..

when i finally reached kajang 2 hours later, Jonathan, Joshua and Joel came to escort me home.. hahahaha.. had dinner at aunty maureen's place and got back home.. today, i'm doing nothing but to finish up my homeworks for tomorrow.. i'll be driving to coll tomorrow from kajang!! weeeee!! thats the only nice thing when my parents are not around, i'll get the car.. hehe.. =p i'm so dead if mummy reads this.. :p

anyway, i gtg continue doing my assignment.. i totally forgot about another assignment.. thank goodness Naufal reminded me.. see u soon bloggie!! Happy December..!! :D toodles!!

*sweet serendipity <3*

tis the season to be jolly!

2010-11-28T04:10:00.000-08:00

and its Advent..!! yes, it finally is.. i feel sooooo happy.. finally get to play Christmas songs and all that.. its the best time of the year and the season everyone's been waiting for.. :) ok enough of christmas for now.. lets talk about the Catechetical Jamboree.. =) my bro and sis attended la and it looks like they really did have a lot of fun..

so yesterday morning, i went to church for praise and worship with the youths.. it was fun doing action songs and singing along with all the kids.. there were 380 of them in total.. cool right.. i didnt know kajang actually had that amount of kids.. haha.. after praise and worship, we had nothing to do but prepared for the games later in the afternoon.. there were 12 stations for the 12 groups so it'll be synchronized la.. and my station had to be under the blazing hot sun la.. goodness gracious.. i was with Juan, and she and i were like under the sun for almost an hour or even more... coz our station was the sponge and water game you see, so we needed an open area..

nicely got toasted and now i'm another step to the darker side.. sighhh... after the games, i just sat around while waiting for mummy to go back and bathe and get ready for mass in the evening.. went back, bathed, changed and went to church for mass.. and mass, gosh, i almost slept off la.. i was extreamly tired and sleepy by then already but we had to wait till night for the Single Ladies dance again..

after mass, i followed Glynn to Colin's house for his grandpa's 30th day prayers.. ok, not prayers la.. i dont know what you call it, but it always happens on the 30th day la.. =p oops! i'll get back to you on that k.. =p so yeah, went to Colin's house for a quick visit coz his dad told us to come and we were all didnt really know whether to go or not coz we had our single ladies practice and the campfire was going on in church.. but we went anyway.. we meaning Christine, Juan and me.. :)

goodness, the whole time we were there, i kept laughing and laughing la.. Juan's blurness, Saha's clownness and Christine's ever blurness as well.. and Pam's stories.. me and Glynn were like laughing and laughing till tears came out.. haha.. its so nice to have friends around us right.. :) so yeah, right after dinner we headed back to church for the practice.. Christine and I changed in the car! LOL... *whattttttt!!! we were rushing k* :p haha..

reached church, we had like a few rounds of practice then we danced in front of almost 400 plus plus people, including Fr.William okay.. HAHA.. and although i danced like a complete kayu, people still came up to me and said i danced well.. yeah right la... you should have seen me la.. worst than a kayu i think.. hahaha.. i begged mummy to go home after the dance coz i was super duper tired and could have just fainted there k.. practically the whole day in church.. i went home and just crashed on the bed till this morning..

and yeah, i woke up late today and rushed to church for their praise and worship again.. thank goodness i made it just in time.. after that i thought i could go back and cont sleeping but daddy told me to wait till mass was over.. haiyoooo... so i waited la.. while waiting, i went for a second round of breakfast with Juan and Freddie.. after mass, i came back with Joel and Cat and all of us just slept again like logs till about 6pm just now.. haha..

it was a fun weekend alltogether though it was tiring.. :) apparently, there'll be a jamboree next year too.. so unfair right. they didnt have it during our time.. the last jamboree was like 10 years ago.. haha.. oh well.. tomorrow i'll be going back to that godforsaken place.. sighh~ why la why.. i just dont have the mood to go back there now esp when Advent just begun.. =( nvm, looking on the bright side, i still have my other friends to look forward to there.. :) i'll see you soon bloggie! i'll try to update if i have internet connection there.. till then, toodles! :)

me?

2010-11-25T08:23:00.000-08:00

i stole this from Amanda's blog.. and its seriously freakishly somehow true in certain aspects of it.. goodness.. weird.. you see and tell me..

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

the what you are most afraid of is soooo true.. i worry so much about what other people think of me that i forgot how special i am on the inside.. i need to tell that to myself more often and stop worrying about what others think of me.. hmmm...even the true self thingy is kinda true.. =) cool quiz..

go check it out here!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

elevator goes up, elevator comes down..

2010-11-24T19:10:00.000-08:00

i'm back! i'm back!! yessssss!!! ok, its not like i've been away to somewhere for so long and just came back.. haha.. its just me being away from the social world for 4 days.. its hard okay.. i'm trying to get used to it.. and so far, i'm ok with it.. one thing because i have my story books with me to keep me company and also songs.. i dont really have much to study yet coz its just the first week and we're still getting our books and everything.. so not much la..

the new house is errrrmmm... awkward? i dont know, coz all i ever do when i'm there is sit in the room all day.. i just got no mood to go out and socialize with my other housemates.. not that i'm anti social or anything, its just, i feel really awkward mixing around with the new housemates.. i still miss Ayu and Anis.. sighhh~ =( oh well... looking on the bright side, classes have officially begun and i love it!! i really have this good feeling about this sem.. my lecturers are awesome!! i absolutely love Mdm Shabina.. whatever she spoke about in her first class was exactly what i wrote in my previous blog post, about chasing your dreams and everything..

and yesterday we had the general assembly to welcome the new intake students for TESL.. i still remember the time when we were new.. making new friends and all that.. sighhh~ memories.. speaking of memories, the committee did a slide show which really went down memory lane.. all the past events we had and the pics.. i just loved it..!! and to make it even better, our mentor, Mdm Izlin gave us sorta like an assignment to do which is organizing an event for our subject Creativity and Innovation.. i'm still wondering what to do.. hmmm...

and and and.. the best part was, aten brought her sister's polaroid camera and we took a pic!! weeeee!! very the naiseee!! =D

okay, not very clear coz this was taken from the phone

of the original picture..

but its really nice!!

this was a few of us after the general assembly yesterday..

i sayang you guys!! =D

after the meeting, i went back to the apartment then mummy came and fetched me home.. i'm so excited to be home!! and really looking forward to the weekend.. the catechetical jamboree!! woots!! and we'll be doing Single Ladies again! hope i dont screw up the steps again this time la.. and i just got a bad news from Naufal, we have class tomorrow... SIGHHH!!! 12-1.. i have to go all the way back there for an hour class just because our HOD is gonna come in.. pffftttt... so much for my 4 days break la.. oh well.. i'll see u soon bloggie!! toodles!!

P.S Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! =)

*love notes on heart shaped papers*

dream, dream, dream...

2010-11-21T11:05:00.000-08:00

you probably would be wondering why am i so rajin suddenly coming here to blog at 2.43AM.. yes, you read that right.. its 2.43 in the MORNING.. and i'm wide awake like its 12 in the afternoon or something.. sighhh~ i dont know why i cant sleep.. probably its the coffee i had just now at my grandma's place.. hmmm..

i was lying down on my bed since 12.30am and i just couldnt fall asleep.. then my mind started thinking about a lot of stuff as usual..so i thought la, since i'm doing TESL and i shall continue till i finish my Masters, with God's willing, then i shall become a lecturer in a uni or college or something right? and and and, i really had this huge dream of becoming a writer/journalist someday since i love writing and talking so much.. last but not least, i reallllyyyyy love taking photographs and i simply love beautiful photography, as you can see from my tumblr.. not that those are my photos, i just love the photos.. :)

so what i thought was, what if i could be these 3 persons? a lecturer, a writer and a photographer.. that will be totally AWESOME!!! What if la huh.. like my titles says, dreams..What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.. oh well.. we shall see la huh if that will happen in the future.. who knows maybe if i start writing a novel, it could be big like J.K Rowling or something.. =p yeahhhh righhtttt.. in my head la! haha..

okay, its 3AM now and i still cant sleep.. sighhh~ whats wrong with me la? i took medicine already and should be cuddled up and sleeping like a baby.. =p hehe.. i like to syok sendiri you see.. hehe.. but i cant and God knows what time will i finally go and sleep.. haiyooo.. thank goodness got people online at this hour and i cant talk to them or smtg.. =p oh well, i should try to get some sleep.. its gonna be a new beginning of classes tomorrow or today i shall say.. see you soon bloggie! toodles!

sick and tired..

2010-11-20T22:08:00.000-08:00

hello!! my last post before i officially start classes tomorrow.. fourth semester.. i got one more sem to go, then practicum and i'm done with diploma.. heading forward for my degree!! 5 weeks of holiday and i chose the last weekend of my holidays just before my classes start to fall sick.. nice la very nice indeed.. i'm having bad flu, cough and fever comes and goes sometimes.. bottom line is, I'M SICK!!! arghhhh!!

seriously, i feel like an old lady la.. as it is that day after playing captain ball, i felt like i was paralyzed or something coz i could barely move my legs.. and now, after getting my sucky results, i decide to fall sick a day before going back to uni.. haiyoooo... maybe its a sign or something.. i also dunno what sign.. haha.. anyway, i wont be online this whole week till i get back next week coz, first, i moved house and there's no internet in the new house in shah alam.. second, i'm training myself to not online often and concentrate on my studies.. and third, i have to live with it!

went to uni that day for registration and i was really happy seeing familiar faces coz honestly, after one month of holiday, my brains karat like crap and i couldnt even remember a few people's names.. =p it took me a while to process their faces then only their names popped out.. LoL.. talk about getting old.. anyway, i moved my stuff to the new house already.. its a bit weird to stay in an apartment coz its small when i'm so used to living in a house.. oh well, its called experience.. its now or never.. =) *trying to be optimistic* i didnt wanna bring a lot of stuff, just the essentials..

hope this will be a good sem.. and hope it ends well too.. till then everyone! thanks for dropping by.. =) toodles!!

P.S its Advent next week..!! Christmas season is here!!! =D weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!!!!

Tumblr pics never fail to inspire me.. :)

you can visit it here

you're the inspiration..

2010-11-19T01:17:00.000-08:00

hello again! i'm in a depressed mood right now okay.. simply because MY RESULTS SUCKED!! and i'm telling you, it sucked real bad.. Its my fault la for not studying and playing the fool all the time.. and my so called last min studying didnt really help either.. it made it worst in fact.. ok la not worst, it did help a little but obviously not a lot... right, i'm talking crap again..

you know the saying, "do your best and leave the rest to God"? well, i did not do my best and thats why God didnt give me the best.. i'm not blaming Him, i'm blaming myself.. and of course, who else wouldnt be pissed at me if it weren't my dad.. i was dreading to not go to the car and see him coz of my results coz i know i'll be getting it left and right in my face.. i even thought of lying and saying that the results is postponed to next week only thinking that he'll forget it sooner or later..

but, i couldnt lie, i just couldnt.. especially daddy.. and about this matter sumore.. if it wasnt for him and mummy, i wouldnt even be where i am today.. so, when i showed him my results, i got it nicely la.. like the journey from shah alam to kajang would never end because my dad kept going on and on and on.. i nearly burst out into tears every minute but i just fought back my feelings..

my dad said to me a few things which made me realize a lot of things.. i am lazy, i spend too much time on the internet, not for education but other stuff instead, i never study enough, i have high expectations of myself... and do i deserve what i got? haizzz.. then my dad told me about himself and what he has gone through to reach what he has achieved today and for what he is today.. thinking back, i remembered when i went for a deepavali visit to my dad's friends house, one of the uncle which i never knew before came and told me about daddy.. and he told me about daddy, all i could feel is the pride is being my father's daughter.. but i dont think i'm even half of what he is..

i'm like way way below.. i dont think i'll ever be able to achieve the kind of success my father has done and for what he is today.. one lesson i learnt from this is that, i should never give up and not take things lightly.. my parents have worked so hard to put me in a university.. not many people out there are lucky enough to have that.. and i seriously thank God for my parents and everything they have given me.. from the next sem onwards, no more facebook, no twitter, no tumblr and maybe no blogger for weekdays till i come back for the weekends.. and its gonna remain that way..

i'm not gonna look back and regret on all the mistakes i have done anymore. instead, i'm gonna look forward and do my best to reach the top.. if daddy can do it, then i can do it too.. and i know and i'll always be my daddy's girl.. though he never says that now to me, i know somehow and i believe that he still does somewhere in him.. he's my inspiration and will always be.. they say, when you fall, you get back up and dont give up till you reach the top.. and thats where i'm heading right now.. if it werent for daddy, i dont think i'll be writing this post and my brains will be still like under the coconut shell..

thats all i wanna say, i hope its not just saying and not doing.. i will do my best to follow what i am determined to do.. see u later people! =)

daddy and i..

in sabah last year.. =)

the perfect man?

2010-11-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

When one door closes, another opens.. but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us...
-Alexander Graham Bell

yeap! I have to agree with the genius who gave us the telephone!! for without him, we wouldn't be texting people daily almost every minute without fail.. but thats not what i wanna talk about.. based on the quote that he gave and my title of the post, put them both together and voila... here's what i'm gonna say.. have you found your perfect man? some may say yes, some no..

well, in my case.. i dont think i have found mine yet.. boys come and go, there are many fishes in the sea but getting that one person who will be made for you, sweep you off your feet is just so hard to catch! haha.. i may sound desperate, but i'm not.. it just that this whole thing got me wondering.. when will i ever find my perfect man? and if i do, who will he be?

i made a deal with myself, if i dont get married by 30, i'm gonna remain single forever.. sometimes it could be fun right? haha.. but then again, we'll never know.. God does wonders when we least expect it.. but then again, 30 is still young right? ok, maybe 35 la.. hahaha..

okay, i'm crapping way too much already.. i'm just repeating the same thing over and over again.. basically, what i'm trying to say is, if you ever think that you're falling for someone or feel that spark between you two, dont rush into things.. go slowly and things will fall into its place.. if its meant to be, it'll be.. =) and about the perfect man.. some people will somehow know that their significant other is THE one and some might not.. whatever it is, just remember, you dont need a man to make you feel like a woman.. ok, i just talked rubbish again.. i should stop now.. this was just a random and lame post.. hahhaa.. sorry to make ya'll read it.. =p

come back again k to hear me talk rubbish sumore.. lol... toodles!! =D

boink boink..

this is so cute! =p

half of the month already?

2010-11-15T20:56:00.000-08:00

goshh... as weird as that may sound but yes, its half the month of November already..!! amazing how time just fly by like that.. and before you know it, my holidays are gonna be over soon.. like in two days time i'll be going back to uni already.. sighh~ when it was holidays, i kept complaining there was nothing to do and how bored and lifeless i am.. and now? going back to uni and i'm complaining, its too soon.. i'm such a fickle minded person la seriously.. and it doesnt help with pms.. seriously..

hmm.. lets see what can i update on.. oh ya! Pn.Puspa's deepavali open house.. its amazing that daddy actually let me go by myself.. i did, and i FINALLY met Charlene, Phoebe, Lilian, Ferlynne and Melissa.. i havent met them since we took our spm results! how long is that! haha.. except for Flynn and Lis la coz i always see them in church.. everyone has changed a lot.. look so much different now with their own respective lives.. we had lots of fun i must say.. meeting our beloved teacher again after so long, well for me la its been so long.. haha.. and talked on random stuff and what we have been doing since we started our uni life..

us.. :)

flynn~lene~phoeb~me~lis~lilian

with pn.puspa, our dearest est and eng teacher.. :)

i miss them.. though it was only for a while, but i'm really glad at least i saw them.. we'll be meeting again in december.. hopefully.. the weekend before my birthday.. :) i cant wait..!! and hopefully there'll be more people this time la.. like the whole 5 Intan or smtg.. =) so that was that..

yesterday, uncle johnny and aunty rosalind took me, joshua,jonathan and cat to the book fair at south city plaza.. near mines.. and gosh, i nearly went kuku crazy!! the bookssss.. wow.. i felt like i was in heaven or smtg.. sadly, i couldnt find the books that i really really wanted.. both by the same author, Khaled Hosseini..

The Kite Runner

and

A Thousand Splendid Suns..

looks like i gotta get them from MPH.. nvm, i'll go get it.. if its a good book, i wouldnt mind.. :) anyway, i gotta go pack now.. lots of things to bring back to shah alam.. sighhh~ i'm gonna miss kajang.. especially now, when its beginning to be fun suddenly... oh well..

Don't know much about your life
Don't know much about your world but
Don't wanna be alone tonight
On this planet they call Earth

You don't know about my past and
I don't have a future figured out
And maybe this is goin' too fast
And maybe it's not meant to last

But what do you say to takin' chances?
What do you say to jumpin' off the edge?
Never knowin' if there's solid ground below
Or a hand to hold or hell to pay
What do you say? What do you say?

I just wanna start again
And maybe you could show me how to try
Maybe you could take me in
Somewhere underneath your skin

What do you say to takin' chances?
What do you say to jumpin' off the edge?
Never knowin' if there's solid ground below
Or a hand to hold or hell to pay
What do you say? What do you say?

Hey now, hey, my heart is beatin' down
But I'm always comin' back for more, yeah
There's nothin' like love to pull you up
When you're lyin' down on the floor, babe

So talk to me, talk to me like lovers do
Yeah, walk with me, walk with me like lovers do
Like lovers do

What to you say to takin' chances?
What do you say to jumpin' off the edge?
Never knowin' if there's solid ground below
Or a hand to hold or hell to pay
What do you say? What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

What if..

2010-11-07T19:15:00.000-08:00

hey there bloggie.. i actually have absolutely nothing to blog about, i just came here to post a song coz i really really like it.. its called 'what if' by Colbie Caillat.. the song is from the movie Letters To Juliet.. i fell in love with the song the moment i heard it.. its so happy go lucky kinda song, it like where you like a guy for the first time and you're just thinking 'What If...'

What if we were made for each other
Born to become best friends and lovers
I want to stay right here
In this moment with you
Over and over and over again

What if this could be a real love
A love, a love, yeah
I don't know what to think
Is this real or just a dream
In my heart is where you'll be
I'll keep waiting till we meet

What if were made for each other
Born to become best friends and lovers
I want to stay right here
In this moment with you
Over and over and over again

What if this could be a real love
A love, a love, yeah
I write our names down in the sand

Picturing all our plans
I close my eyes and I can see
You, and you ask, "Will you marry me?"

Is it made up in my mind?
Am I crazy just wasting time?
I think this could be love
I'm serious

What if we were made for each other
Born to become best friends and lovers
I want to stay right here
In this moment with you
Over and over and over again

What if this could be a real love
A love, a love, yeah
Boy, you know you really make my heart stop
Stop, stop
Oh, what if this real love
What if this real love
Oh, boy, you make my heart stop
You make my heart stop

*you're the best!!*